Me and Brad went out for a while. I was happy at first cuz he was my first boyfriend and all... We never really did anything and whenever we did (even though he doesn't spend money on ANYTHING) I was the one who paid for like everything. In March we were supposed to be going to Monstermania (horror movie convention in NJ) and the night before he told me he couldn't go. After that he stopped talking to me for two weeks and he still doesn't really talk to me. Apparently even though he's being nice to me to my face he's talking shit behind my back. I don't talk shit on him to anybody but my mom...MY MOM! and I know she's not telling him what I say.
I've been working pretty much non stop for the past like two months. I think they're gonna be making me full time soon but I'm not really sure. One of the managers was talking to out new FES and they seemed to think I already was full time. It wouldn't be that different if I was full time because I work pretty much 40 hours a week anyway.
I've been talking to Bob but not as much as before. He doesn't talk to me as much as when I was still going out with Brad or even from before I was going out with him. I had a really weird dream last night about Bob and I don't know if it means anything or if it was just another one of those dreams about people I see all the time so they're kinda in my brain.
My sister graduated from college so she's gonna be home for a while. She's trying to join this thing called Americorps.....I think thats how it's spelled... we don't know if she's going to get it or not though she has to call and do an interview.
Well I'm done typing for tonight. I'm gonna try to update more but I've said that before so we'll see...
- Mood:
nauseated
I got a text from Alex last night. It was kinda random.....well really random... but welcome. I don't talk to him at all really anymore.. I miss him though. He means alot to me and I really hope things work out for him. He was the only one that visited me when I was up at college and he's been there for me more than I think he knows.
The other night I got a random text from Kim. I was a little suspicious only because I know she hangs out with people I no longer talk to. I'm tired of drama and that seems to be what I have to deal with if I want to keep in touch with people.
- Mood:
confused
On saturday night I went out to dinner with Sam, Chris, and Bradley. After dinner Bradley and I went over Lauren's to hang out for a while because there wasnt much to do at that late hour. We found out her boyfriend Andrew was stranded (he had been driving home with his dad and brother from Chicago) because their car got a flat tire and they didnt have a spare. Me being and complete idiot agreed to go with Lauren to get him. Bradley agreed to go along with us.
Well I ended up driving the whole four hours up there with Lauren in the front seat and Bradley half asleep in the back. When we got up there we found out how completely we were in the middle of no where. Since it was like 4 am on a sunday there wasnt really much we could do about the tire and Andrew all of a sudden decided he couldnt leave his dad and brother alone. Me and Bradley had an awkward time trying to sleep in the back seat while Lauren and Andrew slept in the other car with his dad and brother. I slept and found out Bradley hadn't at all.
We got up in the morning and drove around trying to find a place to get a tow or a tire while Andrew insisted on not listening to me about Pep Boys being the only place thats really open on sundays. (I've been stranded often and can always go to Pep Boys) We ended up driving around for a while and then found out we could get a tire a Sears.
While we were waiting for the tire Andrew bought us lunch. At some point Andrew was talking to someone on the phone and referred to Bradley as my boyfriend and then at some other point Bradley referred to me as his girlfriend. While we were eating Lauren asked Bradley if he had actually asked me yet or if we were faking it. Then he asked me if I would do him the honor of letting him be my boyfriend and I said yes.
So after we got the tire and all we got to go home. We had ended up spending like 24 hours in a car and I had work the next morning. I got home at 10pm, ate dinner, took a shower, and went to sleep. Me and Bradley have been dating ever since. I feel a little weird about it for a couple reasons: he's 5 years older than me, we have to work together, and I think he still likes this other girl from work.
He seems to really like me and I do like him so I'm just going to wait and see how it works out. We're going to hang out tomorrow when I get home and he's done work. Sorry for the longish entry but I just wanted to get all this out there and out of my head.
- Mood:
happy
OK well this was just a quick little entry before work. I woke up early.
After I got away I ended up at a police station/ hospital thing. There was a doctor there who was amazingly good looking. He had the most amazing blue eyes and I fell in love with him instantly in my dream. There was the same thing that had been going on with Mitch though. I don't know if I've seen him on tv or in real life, but I know i've seen him before.
That dream is bothering me a little bit. I think both the people I had probably only seen on tv at some point. Life is just stressing me out so much. I don't know if I really want to start school next month. I want to go and I want to do photography. I'm not so sure about the commuting and classes in philly and going alone and not knowing anyone.....Now I'm prolly just stressing myself out.
Paul is the guy that I hooked up with last new years eve and I just had a really weird dream about him last night. I have so many issues with him. My main one was that he had a girlfriend when I hooked up with him but I didnt know it. Apparently he had like five girlfriends and none of them know about each other. I dont see him very much but I'm not sure if I'm going to see him again on new years eve. Plus Jill, who is who I met Paul through and who I'm always with when I see him, seems to want me to date Paul.
Brad is one of the head cashiers that I work with and he likes me. Him and Steph (another girl from work) used to like each other and then she met her fiance so she's not interested in him anymore. He just started ditching her and not hanging out with her. She told me she can tell he likes me cuz he looks at me the way he used to look at her.
Mike is another guy from work. I like him and we talk alot but he has a girlfriend. So I figure friends is good in that situation.
Then there's this other guy from work that no one seems to like, Bob. I cant tell if he actually likes me or if he's just like that with everyone. I do kinda like him though and no one else does..... every one just says he's a tool and they make jokes about him. He seems nice to me though and I guess thats all that really counts but I still dont know whats going on with him
My head is spinning and I dont know what I'm going to do for new years eve. I'm thinking maybe I'll just stay home and avoid anymore hooks ups and stresses
- Mood: confused
- Mood:
blah
I should be sleeping cuz i have work in seven hours. I'm not really tired though.... well I am but can't sleep.
I've been talking to Sam and I miss her soooo much! She might come stay with me for a bit I think. She's having problems that I hope I can help a little with.
I think I might call out of work if I can't get to sleep soon. Sam threatened to block me if she's the reason I'm awake....
I think I'm going to give sleep another shot...... No way i'm making it with no sleep even 6 1/2 hours
- Mood:
sleepy
Since I've been home I've been working a lot at the depot. Bradley is still there and we talk all the time now at work. Another one of the guys at work is Bob. He works in the paint department and tends to harass me when we're both working. Mike works in paint too and he's pretty cool. I like the people that I work with for the most part and I'm learning who everyone is.
I got to hang out with Jill tonight when I was done work so that was pretty cool. I hadn't seen her in quite a while. We went over to Shane's house and him and Paul had been in bed. Paul was "entertaining company" so he went back to bed but Shane went to the pub with us. There really wasn't much else to do since it was 11:30 at night and all the stores were closed.
Tomorrow I'm going to Build A Bear and building a reigndeer for my dad, I'm not sure if he's actually going to like it but it's always hard to pick things for him.
I just wanted to update a bit since I can write more now. I don't like having all these things on my mom's computer because I don't want her to know everything that goes on.
- Mood:
accomplished
well i havent been online very much. i went home from school so i've been using my moms comp. i'm at my sisters for the week end so i'm using hers right now. not much has been going on. me and my sister just finished watching Drillbit Taylor. It was pretting funny. I'm gong to try to write more while i'm here for the weekend.
First I have a question......can anyone tell me how you put things under a cut? I know I tend to write some long entries and that will prolly happen more often after I move back home so I think that would be a wise thing to start doing.
Well there hasnt been too much going on. I've been working and trying to get some school work done. I only have 2 days left until I move back home and leave my job. I'm not sad about leaving school at all. There are very few people that I'm going to miss or really ever care to see again. I'm going to miss the people at work so much! I love them all! The other day Brandon told me I was one of his favorates. It made me feel good but then at the same time a little uncomfortable. The other girl that I know is one of his favorates you can tell he is attracted too and he talks to about everything and I'm not saying I think he is attracted to me but I think he feels like he can talk to me about things that I dont really know about and some that I dont care.
Evan has taken up the habit of winking at me.... I think its a little weird because I dont know why he is winking at me but at certain points in me he does it. He'll also just come up and stand next to me not saying anything. Which is only a little uncomfortable because we aren't close at all really (i wouldnt mind if we were) but he does smell really good like all the time.....
I think I'm going to grab a shower and get some homework done before I go to sleep. How has everyone else been???? Any exciting plans for the upcoming week end?
OK, I've decided since most people on here dont know me I shoul post a little bio....well at this point i'm saying little but i have a feeling it will grow.
Me:
My name is Sara and I'm 19. I'm from Pennsylvania, right on the border by NJ. I've lived there my whole life except for the year I've been at school outside Harrisburg, PA but I still have a oom and alot of crap back home. I'm about 5'2" and I've overweight. I dont pretend not to be, I know I am and I'm dealing with that. I naturally have brown hair with natural blonde highlights but I've dyed it a couple times and now its brown with red and blonde kinda mixed in.... I'm not sure what color it is. I'm going to school for criminal justice. I only have one week left at the school I'm currently at. I'm not graduating I'm just leaving. I'm supposed to be finding a school to transfer to for spring.
My Parents:
My mom and dad are still married. They have been married for 21 years. My mom is 45 (i think) and she's a cashier at a grocery store. She has carple tunnel and tendonitis from her job so she is permently on light duty. She is also bipolar and diabetic. You can tell when she doesnt take her meds cuz she gets really upset really easily. My dad is 49 and almost exactly 30 years older than me. My mom is his second wife and all I've heard about his first wife is that she was a bitch and that she cheated on him with his best friend. He is an alcoholic and drinks basically all the time. It's been like that for as long as I can remember. He gets in fights alot but never physical. I still love them both even though they get on my nerves all the time.
My Sister:
Her name is Amanda and she's 21. We look alot alike to some people but I dont think so. She goes to school for Social work. Kids love her so I think it would be a good feild for her. Most of the time we get along but I know sometimes I get on her nerves. She really doesnt like our dad because of everything he has put us through.
Pets:
Dogs: Nibbles and Kelly
Hermit Crab: Shmee
Fish: Pirannahs: Jaws and Chomper
Anything you want to know just ask!!!
I've started to realize how much I'm really going to miss everyone at work. Even just the people I talk crap on... which I know is a bad thing and I shouldnt do it.......There are people that if I didnt see them my life would be so boring. When I was out of work because of my car accident I missed them all so much. I feel like it would be so rediculous to drive up here to visit the people at work.
I feel like I should miss the people at school more because I've known them longer. I've been at school for a year and I've only been working at the Depot for about 5 months. I feel bad but I'm relieved to be leaving school. I feel like it was a good thing to come here and it served its purpose. Next week is finals and I cant wait for them to be over. I have two papers, an ancient civ asignment, and packing left.
Well Kellen texted me last night....we talked for a little bit and it pretty much ended up him saying we should mess around again. I was kindof expecting that. I texted Ash and she said yea he was drunk. IDK at some point he just stopped texting.....which is what he always does so I just gave up....less stress that way
At work last night I had two guys over thirty hit on me. The one guy was actually cute and he was probly in his early thirties and he was just really nice and everything but he did stay and talk longer than he needed to. The other guy was most likely closer to his mid forties and he kinda creeped me out. He started singing Sara Smile at some point (my name is Sara if you didnt know) and he sang a couple other songs too. He bothered me because I was down at contractors by myself.
I've been trying to get alot of work done on my homework instead of just surfing the net and watching tv. I have a presentation due today for my social deviance class. It's on cults and it should go well. I might be able to update tonight because I only have work from 2-8. I'm going to try to get at least one project done tonight because I procrastinated way too much and I have alot due next week
Work was blah and my feet were killing me by the time I got home. Hung out with Ash for a little bit and bought stuff to make nachos.....yea not much else going on............I dont think I managed to do anything else..........I'm gonna hop in the shower then get some sleep. I have class in the morning and then i have work from 2-8 even though it was supposed to be my day off.
OK soooooooooooo....I'm bored but not tired......and I'm being a crack head and I dont want to go out in the kitchen b/c my room mate was just out there and she has people over. I just got out of the shower and am not properly dressed nor do I plan on being properly dressed till I wake up and have to go to work. But....alas I was kool aid. I'm watching Failure to Launch. I have no clue what time it started and I have no clue whats going on but I dont plan on watching the whole thing..........the kitchen is all quite brb with kool aid!!
Three more people just walked into my house...........I have a feeling it's not going to be easy to fall asleep tonight.... Oh! Work was ok today. I was outside in garden most of the time and then Brandon moved me inside for the last 2 hours. He talked to me for a while about the store that I'm supposed to be transfering to. Sometimes I feel like he likes me and sometimes I feel like he's just being nice. I'm not quite sure where I stand with him but he's my boss so it doesnt matter.
Yesterday at work I talked to Evan for a while. He's pretty cool and he's the same age as me (19). He used to live in NJ and I live right on the border of PA next to NJ. I talked to him about my dad a little and he just kinda listened. It was nice to have someone that listened and he didnt even say anything.....there was no judgement like "her dad's a drunk and she's white trash"... I've gotten things like that from my friend's parents.
Sam keeps talking about how he's going to have a rock hard bod and all these girls are going to want him. I feel bad for him because I think he's a little too optamistic about the affects of working out when he eats the way he does. He told me he's going to get a girlfriend in 3 months because it was his new years resolution. Jen was telling me about how he said before that he never had sex. In my head I was like big deal neither have I. He's turning 25 in December so it is a little different for him than for me but still who cares.
I'm going to miss work alot when I leave. The people at the store I'm transfering to are nice, at least they were when I worked there over a year ago. I think I'm going to miss the people up here more because I've gotten to know them better. I think I'll miss Evan and Mark the most.....and Holly but she's already gone. Sandy doesnt even know I'm leaving yet I dont think. She was out because she had to get surgery but she's supposed to be back tomorrow.
I was hoping my hair would dry before I went to sleep bescause it'll look funny when I wake up. Oh well....I'm a little tired and I have to get up at 6. BLAH!!
- Mood: chipper
I'm home from work and suprisingly not tires. 1:30-10:30 is a long shift. It was busy for a while then it died down, then it was busy again, and died down. Evan was the closing head cashier so that was pretty cool. He was all stressed out b/c so big wig is coming to the store tomorrow.
Sam and I closed so I had to do most of the work. Sam is a nice guy but he's lazyish and kinda annoying. He's fat.........and I'm not saying that to be mean cuz so am I. He tries to get with like all the girls at the Depot. He keeps talking about how he works out everyday and he's gonna get all these hot girls because he's going to have a rock hard bod.... not happening.
I need to take a shower but I sooooo dont feel like it. Eventhough I dont feel tired I want to go to bed. Well, I guess I'm off.
- Music:Cobra Starship
The other day Mercedes (one of my room mates) told me the RA stopped by and said I needed to clean and I was just like ok. She came in again today and told me the RA might be back today or tuesday. I think the only reason she said anything is because she's a clean freak. I dont really care. My room is cleaner than it was when the RA stopped by plus they dont know my life.
I'm watching the re-make of Psycho on AMC. I really like the movie, the original not the one I'm watching. I've never watched the whole thing so I figured I would now. There was a Monk marathon on earlier, but they were all episodes I've seen. Blah!
I guess I'll get some more homework done........I'll write tomorrow probably
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